Hugs are overrated, just FYI.

I am beating Pam by 3000 points in blog postings. This is mainly because I've had off the last two days and have been really bored. Today I started off with a cup of strong coffee though so I did productive things. Like laundry!! And playing guitar hero which I beat on the easy level and now have to conquer medium. I may be obsessed.
Tonight shall be interesting. I am accompanying Brittney to see Kris Roe play an acoustic set and then hitting up 80's night. I am going to wear a black dress with tights. Does this surprise anyone at all? It shouldn't.
I made a peanut butter sandwich and it sucks because I didn't realize the bread was stale. I tried to eat it anyways but I just can't do it. I do have vitamin water so maybe I just won't eat today.
Vitamins!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope some of the old gang is at 80's night. So I can cling to them and not be uncomfortable because I'm not going to drink a lot. I will have 2 PBR pounders and then I will be DONE. This is my rule and I will only bring enough money in to buy those. This is my plan but it could be potentially foiled if some boy is all "Let me buy you a drink!" because I have a real problem with turning down drinks. Hmmmm.
I have to go being the getting ready process. I have 2 and a half hours but I like to procrastinate a lot so I have to start now.
Tomorrow will be fun too because Pamelalalalallaa and myself are going to go somewhere and hide in a dark corner and chat about our lives. Other parties may join us but no one can be too sure about that.
Peace!

I can bring the awesome.

OMG. I've had too much coffee!! FYI.
I am so into this blogging. Seriously into it. You don't even know.
I saw a journal I really loved and wanted to buy today, it was leather bound and really sweet. It was $27 though and I'm poor. Plus my other journal isn't filled yet, soon it will be.
Pam and Gina's birthday extravaganza will be taking place relatively soon and I am so stoked.
We are going to get really sweet outfits and everyone will be like "Yo, can I get your digits?" and I will be like "You already have them because I only have a limited amount of friends and if you are at this party you must be one of them." and then I will be like "But....we can slow dance....wiiink" and I will say wink out loud while actually winking. That's how I roll.
I really hope our party is fun and free of drama. Well I guess a little bit of drama is okay, but only like the fun kind of drama. I want to play fun party games. By fun I mean lame. Spin the bottle FTW!!!
It was super windy last night or early this morning, however you want to put it. My window blew open and scared me. I thought someone was trying to kill me. It would be easy to climb in through my window if you have a background in rock climbing.
Brittney invited me to go to Bamboozle with her in May. I don't know if it's worth it to go to New Jersey when the only band I would really care about seeing is Saves The Day, whom I love dearly but have seen probably like 15 times. I sort of want to go just to go to New Jersey. I don't think it's financially a good move though. We'll see. New Found Glory is coming again though, so we can reunite with Chad and hopefully get in free and be able to kick it backstage. I can then resume trying to find a rich husband in a band. Not anyone in NFG though cause they are all pretty much old and married. I mainly focus on the opening bands. It's like I can't date someone if they aren't in a band. This is a problem. I just really like music and I like people who make it. It's inspiring. 
Oh, you know.

Is it really what you wanted to say?

Hello. I think that the newest Saves The Day cd which is titled "Under The Boards" is excellent but also puts me in about the same mood as old Bright Eyes does. This is not good for a variety of reasons. I still listen to it obsessively though. I really like Chris Conley. I can't help it. Even if after listening to his cd all I feel like doing is sleeping, crying and not answering my phone. The first 5 songs are upbeat and catchy and then the rest of the songs slowly get really dark and morbid. Whatevs.
So yesterday was eventful!!! I woke up, did some laundry, thought about reasons to live, failed, drank some coffee, briefly tried to find a new job, failed, pitied myself, checked the interwebs, ignored my phone for three hours, slept, finally called people back, agreed to hang out with Joe & John. We went to dinner where nobody really ate and then Joe and I journeyed to some outdoors store where there were tons of stuffed, dead animals that really freaked me out a lot. They were everywhere. Ugh. Anyways, then we went to visit Joe's brother and sister in law so he could pick up some movie. They are really nice people and they have a super cute little boy so that was fun. We then went back to my house because the movie we wanted to see didn't start till almost ten. We saw Juno and it was really good. It had good music in it and it for some reason made me feel peaceful.
Then I came home and couldn't sleep because my brain didn't want to shush up. So I tossed and turned forever and finally fell asleep. Now I need coffee and coffee before I go to work.
I think everything I thought my mind was made up about is totally up in the air again. This sucks. Dammit, Chris Conley. This is your fault.

I am more important than you.

Today I realized that my good friend Pam and myself have a drinking problem. To remedy this I am going to buy us flasks. We will only drink around each other and conceal our drinking around all other people. I didn't realize we had a problem but an online test did confirm the truth that our drinking is hazardous and harmful to our health. I also started to suspect it when Pam began listening to Sean Kingston a lot and crying. I thought that was sort of weird but since she's my BFF I never really confronted her about it and just acted like it was normal to down 3 shots of vodka in two minutes while sobbing along to good ole Sean.
I once watched a show where the main character has to go to AA and he told his group that there is no such thing as alcoholics, there are just assholes. I think this is a brilliant theory.
In other news, Pam and I like to make lists. Lists to decide things. Is that so wrong? Is it wrong if every once in awhile they are about boys? Maybe they might add points for really respectable things (nice shoes) and take points away for some not so respectable things (not in a band) but I think it's okay because we just need to clear our heads sometimes.
I also have a problem with telling the truth. Yeah, I just like to lie.